Wednesday, March 2, 2011

I Thought it Would Get Easier

  I don't think I'll ever forget last year when I started my big JDRF fund raising push for 2010.  I remember making that first video and how tough it was; not technically, but emotionally.  It was even hard to write the e-mails to everyone telling them about what Jonathan and so many others go through on a daily basis and what the real risks of diabetes are even though we try to not dwell on them every day.

  So I don't know why I thought this year would be any easier.  Jonathan is a year older, a few inches taller, and more amazing than ever, but when I have to sit down and really think about it I can't help but hurt when I think about the issues he may have to face.  I remember just how much I hate this f*^%!#@ disease and how really helpless and small I feel next to it.

  Maybe it's a good thing though.  Maybe, if I can focus a little, all those nasty feelings can be channeled to fuel the drive to do something better.  Use the dark side against itself.  I don't know, I guess we'll have to see how that works out. In the mean time, I'll just keep plugging away until I get what I really want.


  1. It sounds like you are on the right track... take the feelings, harness them, and make them work for you. Don't hold back.... and it will be GREAT!
    Good Luck!!

  2. i teared up reading your post. i guess it hits me like a knife in the heart when i read other d mums posting about it. in my own life with my t1 son i have to be brave. hang in there xx.

  3. The walk is always the hardest time for me. Looking at the reality of this disease just isn't fun. I had to take a break from the walk for a couple years because I just didn't want to look diabetes in the eye.

    Good luck with the walk Marc!

  4. Theres a lot of these same feeling floating around lately. I thought my mind would be "better" by now.

    Keep pluggin... thats all we can do :)
    Good luck with the walk.

  5. Love you guys is hard....even 4 years into we head into our fourth Walk...